Ready to Cry

I'm about to cry now. I feel like I really have failed these last two months. I was so lazy and unproductive, I didn't even find myself a job. How will I be able to get into UW nursing school, If I didn't even start working as a CNA. That has always been my dream, I can't beleive I just let it go down the drain. I'm failing at my second option too, since I didn't even study for the TEAS exam, how am I supposed to pass it? That is my ticket to Bellevue, which is my plan B if I don't get into UW. This makes me so sad, and I don't have anyone to blame but me!! Ok I am crying now! ;_;
Why am I so horrible and lazy? Don't I want to succeed in my future????